Christian blogger Matt Moore experienced same-sex attraction in the past, but he gave up these sinful thoughts and urges after he accepted Jesus Christ into his life.
Even though Moore has conceded that he will remain single for the rest of his life since he feels no attraction towards women, Moore can't help but feel bitter every time he sees his friends who are happily married.
"Feeling like we have been dealt a bad hand in specific areas of life, we grow bitter toward our friends in the faith and sceptical of God's impartial love. Why does God bless others in ways that He doesn't bless me? Why does He provide for others while He withholds from me? Why does He call others to a seemingly less painful path than the one to which He has called me?" Moore writes for The Christian Post.
Moore explains that he has no desire to get married, but he does have a desire to fit into the married Christian culture. He also wishes to stop feeling awkward about his singleness during holiday gatherings and events. "Though I prefer not to marry, I am not oblivious to the burdens of being single in a mostly-married world. And on this particular day, those burdens felt crushingly heavy," he says.
Every time he tries to pursue a heterosexual relationship, Moore is reminded of his call to singleness. Because of this, he can't help but indulge in self-pity from time to time.
Moore understands that other single people must feel the same way, but before they resort to the "woe is me" thinking, Moore hopes they will first try to focus on the blessings God has given them.
"We are so prone to overlook the abundance of grace God has showered upon us as we enviously eye the lives of those who seem to have received more of it — permitting all kinds of evil to enter into our hearts as we do," he says.
