Today, May 24, marks the day an Anglican priest named John Wesley had a spiritual experience that changed his life, and arguably transformed the church. It's a truly 'heart-warming' day that celebrates the power of conversion and Wesley's fervent Methodist legacy, but many don't know a more sombre side to Wesley's life: his tense and allegedly violent relationship with his wife.
Today is also known as Aldersgate Day, named after the part of London where Wesley had his strange spiritual experience. An Anglican minister, Wesley was a fervent priest but had increasingly been overcome by melancholy and doubt.
On the morning of May 24, 1738, he opened his Bible to read the words: 'There are given unto us exceeding great and precious promises, even that ye should be partakers of the divine nature.' Later that day he attended a church service in Aldersagte, where he heard a reading from Reformer Martin Luther's Preface to the Epistle to Romans.
Then, in Wesley's words: 'While he was describing the change which God works in the heart through faith in Christ, I felt my heart strangely warmed. I felt I did trust in Christ, Christ alone for salvation; and an assurance was given me that He had taken away my sins, even mine, and saved me from the law of sin and death.'
Inspired with assurance, John went on with his brother Charles to pioneer the radical movement of Methodism, spreading evangelical revival across the country and the world. But John's fervent faith also caused profound problems for his marriage in later life: he is believed to have suffered domestic abuse from his wife.
As Lex Loizides explains for Church History Review, Wesley's marriage to Molly Vazeille in 1751 didn't begin as a romance, and had filled his brother Charles Wesley with dread.
The dread was appropriate, because in just a few years the couple would be locked in tense conflict. Wesley was increasingly distant from his wife due to his preaching itinerary, while Molly – wrongly – suspected infidelity and struggled with Wesley's frequent correspondence with other women. Since she was left at home for weeks at a time, but was allowed to open Welsey's post, she saw letters from many of her husband's admirers.
She grew antagonistic to Wesley, wrote critical letters and spied on him, accused him of adultery and gave Wesley's enemies material with which to slander him.
Wesley wasn't particularly charitable either, and once sent an unflinching message demanding Molly be content and submit: 'Know me and know yourself. Suspect me no more, asperse me no more, provoke me no more: do not any longer contend for mastery...be content to be a private insignificant person, known and loved by God and me.'
Content she did not become. John Hampson of Manchester wrote that he 'once entered a room unannounced to find Molly dragging her husband across the floor by his hair'. But John could be violent with his words, once writing: 'If you were buried just now, or if you had never lived, what loss would it be to the cause of God?'
After years of conflict, Molly eventually left her husband and didn't return, in 1771. Wesley famously wrote in his journal, in his only comment on his marriage: 'I did not forsake her, I did not dismiss her, I will not recall her.'
It's a sad story that shows neither of the couple in a good light. It may shock that the preacher was the victim of domestic violence, but it might be argued that he was ambitious and unkind in hoping for a happy marriage and contented wife, when he was never at home and perhaps temperamentally unsuited for marriage anyway.
Wesley's marriage is a reminder that even 'spiritual heroes' and are vulnerable to profound personal unhappiness. Marriage is a serious matter, and as the liturgy reminds us, is not to be taken lightly.