Nicki Minaj 'haunted' by teenage abortion: 'I thought I was going to die'

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Rapper Nicki Minaj continues to delve into her personal life following the release of her newest album, "The Pinkprint."

Minaj, whose real name is Onika Maraj, discussed her family, past relationships, drug use, and more on the intimate album, and discussed a recent breakup and a high school abortion in a recent interview.

The 32-year-old alluded to a terminated pregnancy on the song "All Things Go," stating that her baby would have been the same age as her brother, Micaiah.

"My child with Aaron, would've been 16, any minute," she rapped. "So in some ways I feel like 'Caiah, is the both of them/ It's like he's 'Caiah's little angel, looking over him."

She revisited the painful memory in an interview published Thursday.

"I thought I was going to die," she told Rolling Stone regarding the abortion. "I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I'd ever gone through." She said the decision "haunted" her all her life, but stops short of expressing regret.

"It'd be contradictory if I said I wasn't pro-choice," she admitted. "I wasn't ready. I didn't have anything to offer a child."

Minaj also rapped about the abortion on the third verse of a mixtape track called "Autobiography":

Please baby forgive me, mommy was young
 Mommy was too busy, tryn'a have fun
 Now I don't pat myself on the back, for sending you back
 Cause God knows, I was better than that
 To conceive you then leave you, the concept alone seems evil
 I'm trapped in my conscience, I adhered to the nonsense
 Listened to people, who told me, I wasn't ready for you
 But how the [expletive] would they know, what I was ready to do?
 And of course, it wasn't your fault
 It's like I feel it in the air, I hear you sayin'
 "Mommy don't cry, can't you see I'm right here?"
 I gotta let you know, what you mean to me
 When I'm sleeping, I see you in my dreams with me
 Wish I could touch your little face, or just hold your little hand
 If it's part of God's plan, maybe we can meet again"